What's up Xanga? Once again I haven't been on here in a long time.  I've been so busy with school and work.  I actually overworked myself and I had to take today off.  While I was at home just surfing the internet I realized a really important thing.  I mean I've known this thing existed for a while but I didn't know how to end it.  That thing is the infinite loop of pleasing other people that existed in me.  I know that  this sounds off, but it's true.  This problem began back in highschool with my ex girlfriend.  I was in love with her bigtime.  I would do anything to keep her happy. So after a couple of years of doing this, I started acting that way towards everyone in my life.  I am going to stop only worrying about what others think of me and concentrate on myself.  Wow I'm glad I have a place I can vent. Thanks Xanga! I'm a dork!

I need a F-ing  job so I can move out! It's cool though I know I'll find one soon.  I'm not stressin the issue quite yet.  I don't really know how I'm feeling at the moment, sorta lonlely but yet content.  I had two weird dreams last night!  It was weird, that's all I can say. Well I have alot to do today so I better get a head start.

Currently Playing She Will Be Loved By Maroon 5 see related

Hello xanga community!  I haven't written in this thing in a long time.  I guess I've been busy I dunno.  You know the feeling you get when you realize you've messed something up that could've been great?  Yeah, well I just did.  It's like a blinding realization that just hit me like a train.  Well I can't change the past only build the future!!!!!